Rock WILK: MUSIC & VIDEOS

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Right now
I am living in this icebox
immovable impenetrable frozen
still
replete illimitable winter
bloodless frostbit,
some chilblain Siberia shit
silent life sentence
to unceasing time
with no right to die
 
scarred, tattooed mind
with no exit
just left to swell fervent hope
pregnant, billowing illogical faith
and like Dr. King
I have a dream
I am a custodian of propitious belief
And so for at least this one day
I will continue to wait for you
 
Why?
Because you told me that you still love me
And just as I was about to renounce my unwanted devotion
Like magic, your words popped up on my screen
Asked me if perhaps I would be in your neighborhood
On the other side of the world
You missed me
 
You reclaimed my evacuate heart
Your hook violently ripped through the roof of my mouth
Your blood, that still runs through me
Penetrated my brain again and
Fire hydrant open cap convulsion propelled
out of my eyes, ears and mouth
Shaking, seeing, hearing and screaming me into reverse
You reeled me back toward you
But not all the way to you
And so now I can’t breathe
Violent seizure
Bent stressed pole
Anglers wire noose dangles me
Cuts tight, slices my neck
Leaves me hangin’
Floating, defying gravity
Choking upside down
in between heaven
And drowning again
Because since you disappeared
I’ve forgotten how to swim
 
Every arduous uphill step
A thousand pounds of sad on my back
Dreams turned into insomnia
You found this destiny with me
And then you suddenly disappeared
completely
It's as if YOU decided what was best for ME
You puzzle left this in a million pieces
And then you took MY intentions with you in your backpack
show over, fade to black
and now you come back?
And forth
Back and forth, back and forth

 
Because you disappeared
Just as fast as you re-appeared
This movie had no credits, all erased
ones to zeros crashed
but I backed it all up, saved it
and I learned that I am resilient
lungs expanded
Held breath exorcised
my mending heart lifts me to walk on water
to find my only way to continue
 
I tried to forget that I ever met you
But I couldn’t
found out that my soul will forever be you
finally realized that this is not even about you
this is my own shit
 
and so I have to learn to sit
alone
with me
silently
to live with grief
relief in my own accepting heart
My tea kettle soprano sings to finish this song
I can finally turn off the flame
and surrender to myself
 
I don’t need you to take care of me
I just want you to love me again
And although my confusion can admittedly consume me
That’s your shit
And so if and when you’re ever ready
If you decide you want me
Come and find me
And hopefully
Well, we’ll see